I seem to have regressed to the point where not only am I having issues with my social anxiety in real life, but online as well. I haven’t been posting anywhere much, when normally I frequent two forums and two blogs, not to mention real life–where I’ve been holed up in my house, not even emerging into the outside world for a short walk. There are a lot of reasons for why I started avoiding people again–I’m avoiding Myspace because I’m avoiding my mom’s side of the family because I don’t know what to say to them about my grandpa dying. I haven’t posted as much on any of the forums/blogs not only because I’ve been filling all my time with searching for jobs and cleaning the house, but because I feel I have nothing worthwhile to say anyway. I’ve been avoiding this blog for that reason, mostly–I feel like I shouldn’t post when I’ve hit such a huge setback with this thing. I mean, who wants to read about me cleaning and searching for jobs, when I haven’t even applied to any?
My stepdaughter is giving me a massive headache. I didn’t sleep well last night and as soon as I woke up she started talking, all about the shows she watched on Nick. I’m sorry, but Nick sucks now! Every show she’s watched since I woke up has given me an even bigger headache and she’s talking on and on and telling me to look at the TV with some stupid joke or commercial is on. Aaargh. And my boyfriend had the heat set to EIGHTY. Lord, we live in Florida, not New York!
